With a new resolve to find those words we started reading our Bible. Not knowing whether they would be found in the New or Old Testament we decided to read several chapters of each every day.
We recalled a verse that we had memorized while going to school Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it will be opened unto you.
We claimed that verse as our own and practically hung all our hope on it. We were doing plenty of asking and seeking. The only difference was this time all our asking and seeking was directed to God instead of people since we had no idea who to talk to about what we were experiencing. It seemed different to try talking to Him on our own. Almost a little scary.
We plowed our way through Genesis and Exodus with out finding what we were looking for. Somehow we spent more time reading the four gospels. They seemed a lot easier to read and we found them quite interesting. As we entered Acts and Romans we got bogged down. Nothing made sense at all, we didn't mean to be disrespectful but to us everything that came after the four gospels seemed like a lot of gibberish. Our reading slowed down. We still read, still wanted to know, but the urgent desperation had subsided for now.