Almost a year after LV and I had those words running through our minds at communion services, our faithful reading of the Bible finally paid off. We found the words we had been looking for in Isaiah 1:13-14.
The new moons and sabbaths, the calling of assemblies, I cannot away with; it is iniquity, even the solemn meeting. Your new moons and appointed feasts my soul hateth: they are a trouble unto me; I am weary to bear them.
We read the verses and couldn't help feeling amazed that they were word for word the same as had been running through our minds. We read and reread them and wondered what we should do now. Simply finding those words had not brought the answers we were looking for. So we continued reading the verses that followed.
And when you spread forth your hands, I will hide mine eyes from you: yea, when you make many prayers, I will not hear: your hands are full of blood.
That verse sent a chill through us. But we kept reading.
16 Wash you, make you clean; put away the evil of your doings from before mine eyes; cease to do evil;
17 Learn to do well; seek judgement, relieve the oppressed, judge the fatherless, plead for the widow.
18 Come now let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.
We didn't know what to do after we read that. We had both been baptized years ago but neither of us had felt any different. Since we believed that your sins were washed away at baptism and it was only a once in a life time thing we felt despaired at how we were supposed to finally find that cleansing we had been looking for. We both tried to live our life to be worthy of heaven but somehow it wasn't feeling like enough.
We read on.
19 If ye be willing and obedient, ye shall eat the good of the land:
20 But if ye refuse and rebel, ye shall be devoured with the sword: for the mouth of the LORD hath spoken it.
We felt willing but didn't know what or how to be obedient. Once again we laid claim to Matthew 7:7 It had worked to find these words and now we were asking God to show us how to be turned from scarlet to white as snow. It had taken a long year the first time and we resolved to keep reading and seeking until we find our answer even if it took another year