Starting today I will be doing the occasional post with little lessons I have seen or learned.
Growing up in a very "works" related religion and being constantly trying to be good enough it was such a joy to finally have the peace of knowing I truly belonged to Jesus.
I could have ended our story there but the life of a Christian isn't with out it's ups and downs.
It was several years after the night we had found Jesus and from somewhere I began to question am I really belonging to Him? Did I have a true heart knowledge of Him or was it simply a head knowledge. I would read my Bible and say, "Yes, I believe." But then immediately the same question popped up. Do I believe with my whole heart or only know it in my head. It was a less than peaceful feeling going in circles like that day after day.
During that same time Sunbeam started something. Every evening after our good-night hugs and tucking her into bed she would ask. "Mom, do you love me?"
I would always answer. "Yes, I love you very much." With that she would snuggle a little deeper under her covers and go to sleep.
I continued going in my own little circles and before long Sunbeam was coming to our bedroom door and knocking asking again. "Do you love me?" I started feeling bad about it that she had to ask so often. There was nothing I could think of that could make her question that. And suddenly it was as if a light bulb came on. What she was doing was exactly what I was doing. I was asking the same question of God everyday and His answer was as clear to me as the answer I was giving to Sunbeam multiple times a day.
So I was once again ready to rest in Him and not long after that Sunbeam no longer asked me if we loved her.
A simple lesson of love and trust from our little daughter.